End of My Week: End of My Relationship

     Well, the end of my week is here and I'm very glad it's over. I've been so depressed, miserable, heart broke, and I've cried more than I ever had in my life. I think I hit 15 individual times this morning in the span of about 3 hours. Each day kept getting worse and worse. Mitch started acting different on Monday and from there everything went downhill. Today we broke up. He couldn't handle the distance anymore and he couldn't wait this semester and next summer for me to return on a regular basis. Obviously I cried a lot during that convo too. I love him. I really do. But I couldn't make him happy. Trust me, I worn myself out trying. The only way I'm able to make him happy is to let him be single. So that's what I'm doing. I want to be with him so bad it hurts but I want him to be happy too. I guess it just wasn't meant to be. I decided that it's best if we don't talk, message or be friends. The only way I'm going to get over him is get him out of my life. I think he's really hurt by that but he understands and wants me to eventually be happy too. Yes he's hurt me many many many times in the past but still he is a nice guy. But out of sight out of mind is the best way to go.

     So that was just the icing on top of my very bad week. I don't see how it can get any worse. Unless someone dies and I hope to God that doesn't happen. On a more brighter note, Mom will be coming to visit me over spring break!! She'll be in Italy March 21 (conveniently would have been Mitch's and my one year anniversary. Guess I'm not meant to be with anyone for that long seeing how that's never happened). I'm really excited to see her! I know they can't really afford it but they know how upset I am and they love me a lot to find a way to make their little girl happy. I really do appreciate it.

     Also, as soon as I got done talking to Mitch via Skype, I told Kari what happened and right away she invited me over for a movie. She's such a great friend. We watched Gran Torino. For those of you who haven't seen it, go watch it! There's not really any love in it and a whole lot a humor. I choose well :) I'm actually doing ok right now. I know I'll fall again eventually but I've been crying so much this week, I think my body is just tired of it right now. I'm actually enjoying being numb. I knew this was coming so I might as well get it over with. Right before it happened, I just got home from dinner at a nice pizza place with a nice and cute (I can say that now) waiter. I had some wine in my system and I read some very nice supportive messages on Facebook in regards to the hard time I'm having. So after all that, I felt good enough to pull off the band aid and let Mitch end the relationship. Still hurt and tore me up though. But it could have been worse.

     Another good thing, I'm going on a day trip to Pisa tomorrow and instead of worrying about Mitch and what's going to happen between us, I can enjoy my trip now. That's why I decided to talk to him tonight. Trust me; I'd rather have avoided that convo forever. No one likes getting their heart broken. Especially me since I take hurtful news so hard. So I have 4 months in Italy to enjoy the sights, scope out men and get over him. Then I'll have 3 months of my summer to focus on earning money. Not driving up to GB will save me some money too. And then once school starts, it'll be 7 months and I can start looking for my new Prince Charming. Maybe I'll actually find him this time too. I came pretty close with Mitch so my Mr. Perfect can't be too far away now. 

     I like that I'm optimistic right now. As I'm sure all of my readers do to. Reading depressing things isn't that much fun. But it's my life over in Italy and I'm telling it all. Thanks for reading everyone. I know I have a good support system here with Kari and my roomie Kelsey and at home with all of my many friends and my family. With all of you supporting me and holding me up, I can't fall too far. So thanks.